29 January, 2008

So Many Pictures

First off... Here are those pics I promised you.

This first... It's obvious why she hasn't worn it much... those chunky little legs hanging out! But it's absolutely adorable (even if it is pink) & I had to make sure we not only had her in it at least once, but in a pic too.

Ok, not sure where the other sock went in this next one... She's an expert at getting them off lol.

I wish I'd gotten a pic of Kalila right before I put her in this next one. She gave me this look like "You've got to be kidding!" I'll admit I don't care for the colour... but the outfit is cute. (I could just see it in a nice blue or purple) I guess she disagreed lol.

You may have seen this next one a couple blogs ago when she was crying in the high chair... but here's a sweeter pic.

This next one didn't last long. She tried to keep us from even putting it on! Is kinda hard to see, but white shirt w/ bunny, pink pants, and white bunny slippers (complete w/ floppy ears hanging off) ... lol

LOL Every shot of this next one has the skirt flipped up! I got several of her in it... and every pic has a big smile... well, one has her coming off of a smile & just looks goofy lol, but still... I'm excited about putting this one on here!

The last I've managed to keep her in for a good bit of time today... (don't ask about the one just above... shudder) Thankfully it's warm in here lol.

There was one other I didn't get a pic of... Hopefully she'll get to wear these again at least once... but we'll see. She's growing so fast! At least the one not pictured is warmer than these so it's a bit more likely to see another day lol.

Now... before I get off... Remember me telling yall about Kalila holding her bottle at Church a few weeks ago? Well... I gave her one tonight & got some pics. So cute... So here it is!

One more before I'm off to do diaper duty... This one was this morning... somehow worked her foot out of the sleeper lol. As she kicks the keyboard...

One Interesting Link

Over the past several weeks I've had a few people ask me if I've heard anything new about what's going on in Kenya. To tell the truth I haven't... I was watching it very closely at first... and then my mom got sick & I got distracted from it. Even now that she's better, there's just so much going on. I hear bits & pieces of course, but still...

Well I got an email of sorts today from Amy. For anyone who doesn't know (???) she's in Rwanda right now. Well, a friend of hers was in Kenya during the elections & put up some pictures & stuff on his blog. I'm not even going to begin to describe it - I can't do it justice. But here's a link to Jakes Blog -
“No Raila, No Peace.” Kenya’s Bloody Tribal Unrest.

If any one has any comments I'd love to hear them (as always, is so nice to hear peoples thoughts).

28 January, 2008

Once again...

At some point I'm planning to put some adorable little pictures on here... Kalila is growing so fast that she's either not going to get to wear some outfits from size alone or that plus the fact that we were given some for the wrong weather & she'll have outgrown it before it's warm enough again. So I've been making sure she gets put in them when we stay in where it's nice & warm & have taken pictures of it. But... I'm not finished so that will be another blog, another day.

Before I get to the main point of this... I have a little story to share.

My cat is weird! We have a normal cat dish... One we fill one side w/ cat food and the other with water. Fresh every day. However, we also have a water dish for another room... Just in case... Be it lazy cat or what... figured it was best to do that. Well, this water dish is one that refills itself to a certain point. Nada fancy... but still. So earlier I go in to feed Kalila and hear scratching. Odd scratching. I (somehow) carry the baby to see what's going on & find Mumble. She'd dragged the water dish into the middle of the half bath floor, scratched at it until she knocked the top part over to let out what little water was left inside that wouldn't come out since it'd gotten so low. Note: we'd given her fresh water in the other bowl... All she had to do was walk across our apt. It's not that big.

Anyways... I do have more pictures to share. & yes they are adorable too... So I suppose I lied earlier... but in my defense they aren't the ones I was talking about!

I don't know if I mentioned it... But Kalila is def a little Spurs fan. Watches every game we'll let her... Literally. Her eyes won't leave the tv when it's on. I think she has a crush on Tony Parker... I asked her one day if she liked him & she smiled & licked her lips! So anyways, we got her a little outfit to wear...

Another cute story: The other day I was making dinner... I'd waited until she was fed & changed, you know got her taken care of, & then went to work on it. Well, she was having one of those I want to be held & nothing else will do days & started screaming. I tried her bouncer... wouldn't work. So I put her in the high chair. No. Flat out screamed again. But the food was on & it was at least closer, so left her in it (I'm mean I know) and went back & forth between cooking & trying to calm her down w/ toys & making faces & stuff. Finally the food finished & I made me a plate & sat down next to her. I got pictures of the screaming... but I wish I'd gotten what happened after she stopped. First... she glared at me. Pouted & glared. Then I told her that I was sorry & "Mommy loves you..." and she glared again & said emphatically "Boo". I'm still laughing at the thought of it. Note: she kept up the glare until I picked her back up. & since she did say boo (her word for when she's hungry; must have worked up an appetite from all that screaming) I fed her shortly after... and that got a huge smile out of her lol.

Looks like she's wondering what on earth I'm doing lol...

And bedtime... She picks a stuffed animal every night for story time... this time it was a duck (she laughed at it) & I had to get a pic of her hugging it... Was so cute.

Ok, I'm done for now!

25 January, 2008

I Found Mr. Fish
Ok, I know it wasn't really Mr. Fish as he has long since been digested... it was more like Mr. Fish's Tilapia cousin.

Alternative Title: I Grossed Out (and Horrified) My Husband

Ok, so today we had some errands to run after Jas got out of school. So I went w/ him & we had a really nice day. Which included lunch. During our errands we smelled Chinese & it sounded so good that we figured we'd do that.

& lunch was great. We got there & I went to fill out my plate & found Mr Fish's cousin. I guess I'll call it Miss Fish... A full tilapia... I couldn't help myself... First I thought of Mr. Fish and how good it was... and then (I'll admit) what Jas' reaction might be. So I got it.

I wish I'd had a camera. Sheer horror. It was great! He went off for at least ten min on the fact that it had a head attached. & refused to sit across from me as I ate. Yes... I am still teasing him about it.

Now, for those of you who witnessed my meeting w/ Mr. Fish... Was my reaction that bad? I know I was surprised, but...

I didn't have a camera when I met Mr. Fish unfortunately, but here I am w/ his brother - also named Mr. Fish.

21 January, 2008

Why do I bother?

Arrgh! I really don't know why I bother... why care? It doesn't seem to matter... I just end up hurt... Everything is my fault. I can't do anything right. I've had it. Really had it. Enough.

On a diff note... It looks like Jas got a new job... which is great. I'm really happy for him/thankful - all that. And... he brought up something I hadn't though of... I've been trying to find something to do from home & he mentioned why don't I sell my rosaries? I'd planned on ebaying the ones I made as a fundraiser (had some left over) - but hadn't thought of making more... Is something to look into. I enjoy making them... & it would help out while leaving me home to take care of Kalila.

Speaking of, I've got to go calm her down again... bedtime lol...

14 January, 2008

All Rolled Into One... Again

It seems that I can't get a blog to be about one particular thing lately. Something happens, I want to write... and I can't. So it gets put off & then something else happens.. vicious cycle

Anyways, before I start anything else... Mom is doing much better. She was moved out of ICU today... I talked to her earlier... and yesterday too. Sore, ready to get out of the hospital, and all... but better. She even said that one of her dr's said she may be released tomorrow! We'll see, but still... good sign!

While I'm still close to that subject... I thought I'd add a pic from the trip we made to see her last weekend (weekend before last I suppose). This was Kalila's first real trip & we took a pic of her on the bed at the motel room lol.

Also, I believe I mentioned before that she has been trying to roll over lately... She did it at 5 weeks & then stopped. A couple weeks ago she managed to do it again... Here's a shot I got of her right after she did it!

She's still perfecting it though. Usually she gets half way over & gets stuck lol. She managed to roll from tummy to back today as well, but no camera around to catch that one! One I did manage to get today was of her stuck... and as you can see she uses one of her rattles as a bracelet sometimes too lol.

My daughter has also gotten to that lovely human pretzel stage. It's absolutely adorable... esp when she tries to eat her toes lol. However... makes diaper changes twice as difficult. I don't have many shots of it, but I do have at least one of her grabbing those feet.

She's also playing w/ her toys a lot more... Gonna add a few shots here. The first is one of those V-Tech toys, that she got for Christmas... Mumble is about as curious about it as Kalila is... I have to make sure she's in the other room when it comes out. you can see why lol.

A second is a stuffed puppy she just loves. She hugged him right away (not sure why I keep saying him.. the thing is pink lol) & started talking to him.

Plus... we got the high chair up... & I went crazy taking pics of her in it... The first two were of the first time I put her in it (of course) & the others are last night.

What I haven't gotten a picture of... That round rattle in the half rolled over pic, she's started passing it from one hand to another. Not really sure how I could get a pic of that, but it's cute to watch lol. & as of yesterday she's holding her own bottle! Not that she gets a lot of chances to practice that one... but we were really excited about it.

One more pic before I get off this sub lol... I caught a smile earlier today... was teasing her not too & it worked - she did! If you're wondering about the spray bottle that's for Mumble when she tries to misbehave. Am going to get that cat trained... (she's still a kitten, she's still a kitten)

& if you are wondering about Mumble... Her latest feat is jumping up on the table to turn on our sanitizer... I used it for some bottle parts & pacifiers (the only thing we use it on really - about once a week or two weeks) I can't believe she figured out how to do it! lol.

I also got a cute picture of her on New Years Eve... After Kalila went to bed I made myself my first margarita in about a year & filled a nice bubble bath. After I finished I went to check on Kalila before running the shower & forgot about the door... this is what I found when I finished my shower.

Thankfully the glass was empty! That'd be just what I need... a drunk Mumble! & I could so see her doing that too...

I think that's all the news I have for now... Def. have more pics, but not gonna put em all on here lol. Besides, Kalila is asleep & I would like to be too... Thankfully went down much easier than last night.. .All I'll say is that I ended up covered in pee and Mumble was running to the front door like she wanted out. :-D

08 January, 2008

Mooned by a deer...

Yes, you read the title right. Looong story, most of which (hopefully all) will be explained in this blog. Before I even get started telling you about what we've been through this weekend, I want to say a few things. First off other than the dream at the beginning, everything is true/happened... and tech the dream is too since I did have it lol. Second I apologize if I go off at any point in this. I started off worried, stressed & upset... and moved to worried, stressed, upset & royally pissed off. I'm afraid it's gonna come out, if you don't like it too bad.

I'm going to start with where I left off in my last post. I got the call that Mom is in the hospital. They thought it was a stroke and that it happened the Wednesday before. This was on Friday. I got that call about 2:30ish... Jason had just gone in to work an hour before for his double shift. Second one of the week... I got ahold of him, let him know what was going on & he started making plans for us to go up there if needed. Told me it was my decision. Honestly I was worried about it.. for one thing really worried about my mom & wanted to be there... but on the other hand Jas' coming off a double shift - no sleep & a really bad allergy infection scared me too. I could just see us leaving & getting into some kind of accident or worse. So I didn't know what to do. I went to bed that night really worried about making this decision.

Put that all together & I had the weirdest, creepiest dream I've had possibly ever. I'm gonna gloss over parts because they are vague in my mind for one, and not very important to the situation. Basically I was in several places (like college & a store/restraunt w/ my mom & saw random people there) but at the restraunt it turned. I sat down & saw Betsy across the room. Knowing it couldn't be her I started to ignore it but couldn't. I jumped up & ran over... She stood up & was pushing Emily's wheelchair. Emily had this weird shocked smile on her face. I asked how they did it & Bets said that my phone would ask me a question & I would need to tell it no & that would answer what I needed to know. So I got a txt & I replied no.. and puzzles started showing up & the last one ended w/ me being told "Your mom is next" - I went from there to my brother in law & friends acting odd, trying to lock me in a house & then I woke up thoroughly upset. Of course, I know it came from stress & worry about Mom & everything... but still...

So Jason gets home about 7ish Sat morning. He's even worse than he was when he left (illness wise). Dead tired. He laid down & crashed & told me to make up my mind and we'd go. I'm off & on the phone all day... Talked to Mom once... I could tell he was sick, but she acted like she knew me even if had trouble talking. Told me not to come. Then finally talk to an aunt who's a little more upfront about what was going on than everyone else I talked too (they all kept saying she was getting better). Talked to Mom agian & told her we're coming... she still seemed ok then.

At that point we decide yes we need to go. We packed up as quickly as possible & took off. Jason had gotten the directions Mom gave last time we headed up there... Took us through Big Lake. It was supposed to be shorter, and probably was... But we saw 43 deer (one of which, yes, mooned me... I told Jas that night I was titleing this that is why I did...), 2 rabbits, 1 snake, 1 drunk driver, 2 cops (who unfortunately didn't stop the drunk driver) & nearly had 2 accidents. The first time was a stop sign we didn't see, it had to be exaustion becuase I don't know how we could miss it. The second time one of those 43 deer ran in front of us.

By the time we got to Midland I was competely on edge... It was awful. We made it to the hospital at 2 in the morn - just after we got to town. Mom was awake. I don't think she recognized me at first, but did after she saw Kalila. We talked a little bit... she's still confused and stuff, but still. She spent most the time talking to Kalila, and about her. Saying she was pretty over & over & stuff like that.

So we left after a couple hours - Mom needed sleep, you could tell. We were going to get some food & then head over to her house to stay the night. I'd planned to clean up a bit while we were there too. First off, we couldn't find the restraunt we got directions from the nurse to. Then we gave up & decided to go to the house & couldn't find it in the dark. Wandered around for hours. In the end I knew we were passing right by it but still couldn't get there... stopped at Denny's & then a motel.

The next morning we realized that yes we were right by the house, about 2 min away. We got there & realized that we couldn't have stayed there. I checked around for meds in the house becuase the nurse had asked me for information I just plain didnt have - Mom doesn't tell me things. I still wanted to get things straightened up but didn't have time if going to see Mom. Seriously, it's like a 3 or 4 day job easily... But anyways, got going & realized we were also 5 min away from the hospital... we'd spent hours driving the night before looking for this place - I felt so dumb.

So we went back to see her... She was asleep when we got there & slept most of the time. Didn't eat all day. Barely answered questions I asked her... We stayed as long as we could... like 5 hours or so, maybe longer. Only ones in the room with her.. I almost feel for the people in the hall because every one of them got flashed by me becuase Kalila happened to be eating every time I needed to get to the nurses station lol. Oh well, it's a hospital - they should be used to it... and if anyone has an issue w/ the whole bf public thing too bad at this point! (I'll get off the soapbox before I continue on) The dr's assistant came while we were there & asked her questions. She answered very clearly at that point... some were wrong but still. & just before we left she talked a bit more... seemed a bit better. But they were supposed to do a lumbar puncture that night. By this point they knew it wasn't a stroke & needed to find out what it was.

On top of all that... I talked to her nurse... got a passcode set up so we (and other fam) could get info on the phone. Asked what needed to be done, how to get info, etc. Called fam to make sure someone was coming up the next day. I wanted to stay, but I couldn't.... Someone really needed to be there & I was trying to get that point across.

We left, later than we should have... stopped off to see my great grandfather who I haven't seen in over 3 years. & then headed on to my cousins house. At this point I remember being on the phone w/ Rosie (my step mom) talking about what I was going to need to do, coming up more, etc. Getting lectured basically lol.. but that's ok, I don't mind it like I did as a kid. Right in the mid of that, Jason fell asleep. Swerved to the things that vibrate on the road.. scared the crap out of me! & himself too... Got off the phone so quickly I was afraid Rosie'd think I was upset w/ what she was saying lol. The rest of the trip was basically uneventful except for the odd banana flavoured orange I ate from Town & Country (I'm serious, it tasted like a banana) & getting hyper due to sugar rush (I didn't eat all day until then... which I can't be doing). It was crazy. Las' house isn't easy to get too & Jas was going off in a joking manor about it... Had me going. I have no idea what Las was thinking.. Must have thought we were nuts. We stayed up talking later than we should.

Jason slept in yesterday... which he needed. I didn't mention it earlier, but that allergy infection got worse while we were up there. He was miserable, hacking cough & everything. Had me scared about him too. I got up at 6ish - combination of their alarm waking me up & my daughter hungry. So I only got a couple hours of sleep. Can't complain though cause Las didn't either. We spent most of the day while there trying to find out info about what's going on. The test got put off because Mom refused it... My grandmother had to sign papers to have it done anyway... I get told off for not doing so the night before.. when no one told me it needed to be done. I asked them if there was anything before I left! Not that I'm blaming the nurse either because we had no clue Mom would refuse...

Finally had to head back here.. much much later than we should have. Poor Jas I don't know how he managed it. I was worried about him all night last night. But anyways, on the way back uneventful... no near accidents thankfully. But right before we got to town, we were driving through clouds & this light was shining up through them. Looked so beautiful... and when we got close we realized the light was shining on this cross. I can't even describe the feeling there at this point.

I felt so awful when I got home though. I can't even imagine how Jason managed being up last night. I couldn't have done it. As it was, I had to have help getting to bed. Thankfully Kalila was out & is sleeping through the night.

Today.... that's where the ticked off comes into play. I have been calling all day. Talked to the dr this morning & he said it was Herpes Ecephalitis - and not contagious. I passed the info on... Then hear that she's been moved to ICU from one person.. that she died & was recussitated from another.. Couldn't get the nurses to tell me khara, even with the code! Put on hold more times than I can count. Finally we've been told that she has viral meningitis. I'll get back to that in a min.

On top of that, I'm being talked about because I came home & didn't clean up while there. & that pisses me off. I went up there, even when I really couldn't. We spent money we don't have to get across the freaking state. It was important so we did it. & we did it with a 3 month old baby... one who eats every one to two hours. I can't stay at the hospital with teh baby. We can't stay at the house. I don't have a car & Jas can't stay period. He's got to work. He's got school starting back up again. I can't send Kalila back with him, not just because of his job & school... but lets face it - he can't feed her!!! I'm pretty sure he doesn't have the equipment for it. No, I just looked, he doesn't! Plus he's sick too. No, it's not as bad... but I do have to take care of my husband too. He drove up there, made himself worse, so that we could be there for my mom. Hasn't complained once. And as for cleaning... hmm would they rather me cleaned & not seen my mother? Because I couldn't do both. & even if I had cleaned & not seen her... I couldn't have finished. I'd have to do it myself because Jas couldn't stay in there & neither could Kalila. I have no idea how it's gonna get done. I'm sorry I don't. I don't know any one there. I don't have money to hire someone. I didn't even have money to get there in the first place. As it is, I don't know what we're gonna do this month, how we're going to do this month. But yeah, I don't know what to do, don't know what anyone else is going to do... which brings me to worry about my own things that are there if someone does get in to work on it... admittedly not as important as Mom or her health.. but still. I had left them becuase we dont have much space here yet. The whole situation has me wanting to scream & pull out my hair.

THEN... the viral meningitis. It's contagious!!! People are having to suit up to go see her now. Everyone is worried about catching it, or having caught it. We could have put Las & her kids in danger.. unknowingly but still... Plus there's Kalila. I have never been so scared in my life. Now I d0n't just have to worry about Mom (which I have been worried sick about) but now my daughter (plus yes me & Jason too) & even the rest of the family. I'm still waiting on news... they're running more tests to see if brain swells or anything.. she sleeping a lot. In ICU still... In an MRI right now is what I just heard... being given meds that have us royally confused. Like I said, scared to death over here... Waiting for our Pedi to call back too.

But that's where I am for now. Sorry if I vented for a bit there... but... honestly I'm frusterated. I'm scared, worried, tired... I could go on. & all the drama crap doesn't help. I'll prob write again in a day or two.. we'll see...

04 January, 2008

Where did boring go?

I want boring back!

For days I've been thinking about writing a blog. So much has been going on.

My daughter is growing like crazy... Expected yes, but still.. I'm putting away more & more of the clothes that don't fit her. She's doing more... Rolling over again. She'd done it a couple times at 5 weeks - back when she hated being on her back lol... but got used to it & stopped. She's playing more with her toys. Shes' "talking" more. Smiling more. It's cute... I just love it.

I'm hearing news about stuff going on in Kenya.. That may not sound like it should be in here... but I spent quite a bit of time in Tanzania, not all that far away. One of my close friends is living in Rwanda, also not too far away. I have friends from Kenya. & it was the country I picked as wanting to go to as a child. That last one doesn't weigh in as much, but it's there too lol. But hearing the news the other day, getting an email from Amy about some people there, waiting to hear what's going on... it hit me harder than I would expect.

I also thought about writing about the obnoxious guy at Arby's last night. First off he was not understandable... (what he was saying htat is) Then... He dropped our food! Didn't say a word about it, just turned and left to get the next order. Jason had to force his door open as far as he could & reach for it... Took several minutes to get the bag... We were both seriously annoyed. Not only was it rude, but... I'm not even going to keep going. I'll just make myself mad all over again & I really don't need that.

So yeah, loads going on. Which is fine. But I just got a call from one of my mom's friends saying she's in the hospital. They're doing tests... not sure what's up.. but that it may have been a stroke. She said not to worry lol... How the hell am I supposed to not worry? (as Kalila lets out a big one... I suppose she agrees) I'm waiting for more news now... We may be making a trip this weekend.

& its at this point that I'm saying I want boring back. I'll keep the baby stuff... That kind of not boring is great. She makes me smile even now. But everything else can just stop. I want to just be here taking care of her & cleaning house like earlier. Speaking of, thanks to that earlier agreement I now have a diaper to change :-D